I want to start this Blog with a question. Have you ever wanted something so bad that you couldn't wait till you got your hands on it? What about you parents have you ever had one of those days when the kids won’t listen, they won’t settle down, they are being loud and bothersome no matter what you to , and it got to the point where you felt like you were going to explode at any minute. IN other words, has your patience ever been tested to the point where you felt like you were going to snap and then WHAM, everything changed in an instant and you were fine? I am sure every one of us out there has had one of those days and will probably have them again. The reason I am asking this is because I am going through something that is requiring me to really learn the true meaning of patience.
I will just lay this out there and hope that maybe it will help someone who is going through what I am or will unfortunately go through it later. I work in an industry that is laden with wickedness. Oh don't get me wrong there are some Godly people I have run across in the 8 years i have been in this business but I would venture to say that 90% of the people in my industry are good people but they are so wrapped up in the world and its ways that it makes for uncomfortable times for someone who is living for Christ, or trying to. I know in heart that God has called me into the ministry to preach the word and currently he has called me to minister to the youth at Grace Baptist Church in Durham NC, and I am so thankful for his calling. The problem I have is with God's calling comes many responsibilities and I am willing to take on every one of them, unfortunately I have a job that keeps me from not only my family, but from working for the Lord as much as I feel I need to, and this brings me great spiritual pain and great physical stress. I go to work these days and I dread getting up for work and while at work my mind is fixed on the things I feel I need to do or be doing for the Kingdom. There are certain people that i have tried to talk to at work and they refuse to change and then there is one in particular that has come to work in the last few months that you can tell has so many ulterior motives in mind that I have resolved to pray for this person, who is not a Christian and is of another belief system. I sit in my office, worrying about finances and trying to figure out ways to get into the ministry full time immediately and how to come up with funds for school and my mind is consumed with things of the Lord. The only time I am truly happy is when around my family, and my church family and at the house of God or doing something for the youth,
Oh I know it sounds like I am complaining and I do promise I am not, what I am saying is I have been so consumed with trying to figure out how to do what I know God has called e to do that I have done what many of us, I left God out of the process. We all do this, we get so wrapped up in what we want to do or what God has called us to do that we have to be careful to remember that When God calls, God delivers, IN HIS TIME. Psalms 37:7-11 "Be still before the LORD and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes. Refrain from anger and turn from wrath; do not fret—it leads only to evil. For evil men will be cut off, but those who hope in the LORD will inherit the land. A little while, and the wicked will be no more; though you look for them, they will not be found. But the meek will inherit the land and enjoy great peace."
BE STILL, did you hear what he said. He said BE STILL. Does he know how hard that is to do, I mean I have to be out there, i have to be witnessing I have to be spreading the word, I mean he called me and now he wants me to be still? What is he doing to me? Until today I had not been still and I have been a miserable mess here at work, and I imagine some of you out there who God has called in certain areas may be feeling the same way. You see when we try to rush things we are just going to royally mess them up. We are going to get things wrong, create problems and wind up a mess spiritually and possibly even physically. But if we can grasp that God has a plan, and all we have to do is wait PATIENTLY for him. How do we do that though? Well Philippians 4:6 says "Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God." If we can learn that in EVERYTHING, and I mean EVERY aspect of our lives, to seek the Lord with Thankfulness in our hearts and a Praise on our lips when we pray, then be patient and wait upon the voice of God to give us our answers, we will see mighty works done and we will see our lives grow in the fullness of God. Then and only then can we make sure that what we do will be blessed of God and that no mess will be made by us. Once we come to this realization in our lives we will also realize that one day we will receive a home in Heaven with God for as Psalm 37 says "Those who Hope in the Lord, will inherit the land"
I have resolved myself to wait patiently on the Lord, as hard as it might be, I am going to go forward from here knowing that He is in control and that in his time, he will establish my place in the ministry. Until then I will keep praying and praising and doing what I am doing, ministering when the opportunity arises. God bless all of you out there who have either been in this position, or may go through this position. Keep your sites on the Lord. I would ask that if you are a prayer warrior reading this that you would add my wife and myself to your prayer list and join with us in praying that God calling on our lives would be one that always glorifies Jesus and never brings the attention on ourselves. God bless and have a great day.
In Christ's Love,
Bill Roy
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